Frisbee Fears.

So my dog Kiri. Has always been afraid of the frisbee. She's a big scaredie cat. Part of it is because she was abused and abandoned when she was a puppy, but yeah she's afraid of alot of things, (my dads truck, water, mice, the end of the driveway, treats, ect.) Today was a monumental day for my dog. Kiri Gewndolyn Kania has over come her phobia of fly fabiric frisbees!!!!!!!!! It was exciting. I'm not quite sure how i did it. But me and my friend Lindsey were playing frisbee cause we were bored crazy, and then i just started messing around with my puppy and i threw the thing and she went after it. Me and Lindsey stopped and looked at each other in amazement! "Did she just-!" and then we proceeded to play till kiri plopped down with tiredness, and we joined! I'm so excited now! I have a game i can play with my baby!

MOVE

C.I.Y, has now become MOVE.

I had a freaking blast! Something powerful happens when you worship the Lord with more than a thousand of you peers. The theme this year was talking about moving for God and what he is moving us to do. I learned alot of things about how God wants us to act and what he's calling us all to do. I'm horrible at explaining it, I feel like i'm not doing it justice because it was so much more amazing when your there. We had a lesson on boldness one night, being bold for the Lord and not holding back your faith. At the end the speaker said when the worship leader came out not to sing, just listen to the music and pray to God about being bold, and if you feel your need to change and be bold for Christ, stand. Well, while he was saying this i already felt the pull of the holy spirit to stand, I knew me being bold and not holding back was what God wanted from me all along and upon hearing my readiness was rejoicing and "sitting on the edge of his chair with excitement". So my prayer was this, "I understand Lord, give me strength! AMEN!" and i was standing singing my heart out. It was an amazing moment. I've also come to the realization that the Lord has plans to use me, and from what i can tell/hope (but who doesn't) in a big way. I'm not sure what He wants me to do but i know, i can feel, He has a major plan for me! and i'm nothing but excited, I want to serve the Lord that made me who i am! and another cool thing happened that moment. It was another call to stand thing, at the end of the last session, a gentelman asked us to stand if we had made verious decisions, When he asked anyone who felt God was using them and that they wanted to serve him, i felt another pull to stand (which was the Holy spirit telling me i was to be used.) I stood. Then the man instructed those around anyone who was standing up to put a hand on them and pray with him. Well, Jason Smith grabbed my waist and held on like a little child, in one of the most memorible hugs i've ever had, then about fifty other hands were felt on my arms and my back and it was funny watching my friend Kory struggle trying to touch both me and our other friend Brooke, who had also stood up.

It was an amazing feeling to have all the support and care all around me.

My favorite part of CIY is friday night when Jayson French yells at us. This year Jayson brought to our attention the over ratedness of the cross. Don't take offense he makes a strong point. If Christ had never risen from the dead after dieing on the cross his death there would of been nothing more than a common criminals, and completely usless to us. That the fact that he is still alive and defeated death is what saves us! now, yeah thats nothing compared to how he said it, it was amazing and by far a big realization. Another cool thing that happened that week. We did this thing called WEAVE, its where the students are broken into groups and each group sings, prays, or reads scripture and thinks on questions given to us. Its an amazing sight but hard to explain in typing, but anyway, after each group had done everything the screen said "NOW MOVE" and we were saposed to do what ever the holy spirit was moving us to do. The first night i was moved to apologize to my exboyfriend who i was having issues with, The last night though, was by far the most amazing. I was having trouble concentraing on God during Worship because i was focusing on my relationships and how i felt about some of the people in my youth group, and then a church walked up front by the stage and soon other followed, usualy I love worshiping with people and being crowed together like that, but for some reason i was really uncomfortable, which bothered me a little. It was not how i usualy was. So when the "now move" came i prayed and asked for a clear mind and to have it be just me and God. It didn't work, so i decided to walk and sit in an empty area in the bleachers and close my eyes and sing, not looking to see what my fellow teens were doing. I prayed again, and told God that i just wanted it to be me and him but if He wanted to send someone it didn't matter. I was struggling to not look to see if He was sending anyone from my group but i kept my eyes closed or locked on the screen. Then i felt an arm around my sholders and i didn't look to see who it was but i saw the hand and thought it might of be Zacharia, then i saw a girl i didn't know come and she kneeled down behind me and prayed for me then she moved on to help others, but the arm around my sholders stayed with me for the next two songs, when i decided i was focused and ready to rejoin my group, i turned to thank the arm and saw that it was a complete stranger, thats what i love about CIY teens that aren't afraid to reach out to each other. I thanked him, and then thanked God. I thought it was cool the God sent two strangers to comfort me instead of people from my 0wn group, expecaially sense only moments before i didnt want to be anywhere near people i didnt know. Kory likes to say C.I.Y. is a slap in the face and thats what makes it so amazing. I disagree, i wasn't slapped this week, i was gentely lead to find myself and who God wants me to be. by far more amazing.

Kaylee!

So i went to my friend Kaylee's dance recital a week or so ago. It was uber exciting! I'm really glad i went, and not just for the males (thats a whole other blog) But it made me look back to my dancing days, i'm really glad Kaylee has something she enjoys so much and is SO good at. I'm so glad i could be a part of that. She was amazing, you could tell she loved it so much more than everyone else, the way she danced and the emotion she put in it was so noticible compared to the others she was dancing with, it was BEAUTIFUL! I wish her much sucess and look forward going to the next one, sorry i dont have much to say about it! i'm short on time and i currently cant blogg at home. keep your eyes open for some sneek in bloggs here and there the next one up is C.I.Y. !

chris chris

Chris Wilson is my boss. and i love it! If he was a teenager he'd so be my best friend. I don't understand why all the employees my age hate him so much. Well i dont think tyler hates him... i think we both have the same amount of respect for him. but yeah I love Chris, hes such a dork and it makes my day. He's so fun to work with. My mom says its cause we are so alike, I guess i can see that. But its so fun, i think im the only employee who has enough guts and respect from Chris to actuly arguee with him, now of corse they are always lite hearted joking arguements, but still not just anyone can joke around with him. Its so fun. we seriously just make fun of each other all day... I'll do something for him and he'll e like good job i was waiting for you to completly fail and i'll be like shut up chris your a loser go home... and we just continue on working. its so great! its overwhelmingly great! I seriously dont think i could work for anyone else there but Chris, because if i can't mess with my boss i'll go pshyco... and everyone else is either to sarcasticaly challenged or wont tollerate it from they're empolyees. I show Chris my appreication of him at the end of every year by giving him a gift that always consists of twizlers and mountain dew (his favs) and some other hobby related things i digg up (i ask his sister). and like i dont know i just love it and i seriously don't understand how people can hate him, he is so much fun! well thats whats on my mind right now so yeah. thanks for your time. and CHRIS WILSON is deff a guy you should meet.

sexy head

so i got a new hair cut/do

it makes me feel powerful. :) Its had an overwhelmingly better acceptance than my last dye job. so that makes me feel really happy. and the guys are deffinitally noticing me more... or my hair has justed opened me up more to them either way. i thank the hair. and I'm really excited. Its comfy and style free. i shower blow dry and sleep then im good to go. Eric says i shouldnt rely much on my physical apperiance. and i agree but i also disagree. My apperance is how i express my self.. or at least part of it. and the why i look to myself greatly influinces my outlook on life. and i think its like that for everyone. I'm not saying if i look like crap i feel like it too, but everyone has a better time when they think they look attractive. and i like looking attractive, and i really do feel the part now too, its like i've been let into this whole new world of happyness. lol. not that im letting it go to my head cause that would be concidedness and deffinitaly uncool. but i think i pull off the dark red well and everyone else seems to agree. its nice when people agree with me. :) I'm excited for me new look. and my parcially new and more confident me.

JLYASDI

Why so serious....??

I am going to see it and if you try to stop me you WILL die. Im so stoked!

"You crossed the line first, sir. You hammered them. And in they're despiration they turned to a man they didn't fully understand. Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned, or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn."

"You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself
become the villain."

Christian Bale is love and R.I.P. Heath Ledger. I love batman!!!! so much you don't even understand. If it wasn't for God i'd prolly worship batman. Im so excited only 75 more days!!!!!! only four days after what would of been my one month.... sick. oh well batman is better than any man will ever be!

The puzzel that is my mind...

So I'm at my friend Tink's house right now and they are all in the living room watching Zoe 101 and yeah not my stuff... so i'd figure i'd let you into my head for a little bitt to keep you and myself entertained.

MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE>>

Your name always sounds better when and attractive person says it.

Bosses are always better when they are Hyper.

Shoes are a confinement, though and attractive one.

Writing is the socially exceptiable form of sckitzophrenia (Sp?)

I dont have dreams i have ambitions

Beatles music makes me feel happy

NASCAR isnt a sport... its a way of life

Summer is best spent outside

water is the only liquid i dont mind having on the outside of me.

i stare out windows and watch life... which no one else seems to see but me....

blue is the best color.

i couldnt have bette friends then kory and heather

bowling makes me feel like i can do something no one else can

Dirt is the best make up.

Hands are more beautiful when they are rough

nicknames are better than real names

and friends are the best thing a girl could ask for....

so im going to go chill with them....

look for more of the puzzle that is my mind....

TTYL JLYASDI